Bring May Flowers

I received a call early on in the day from the other family I was suppose to have a nanny interview.  Unfortunately, the family canceled the interview because…get this they thought they would love me and that I would be great.  The family has had a nanny for only one year in the past and it was emotionally very tough.  Of course I am understanding and know that having a limited amount of time with someone you will be working very close with can be difficult.  While I am disappointed as well because I was very much hoping to work for this family, life goes on and I trudge forward.   

I spend a good portion of my day sorting through the logistics of the youth group meal.  Man, it is certainly helping me gain appreciation for all that goes into running any type of program or event.  I was feeling very much overwhelmed this morning with the interview being canceled, trying to figure out meal details and wanting to push forward on illustrating the book.  It was in that moment I went back to the Jesus Calling devotion and read it more care; this is what stood out:

“They avoid the present by worrying about the future or longing for a better time and place.  They forget that they are creatures who are subject to the limitations of time and space.  They forget their Creator, who walks with them only in the present.”

Reading this again brought about many different trails of thought.  One led me back to things I have been reading in the bible about God fulfilling our needs of what to drink, eat or wear.  I found it interesting that the accounts I read in the bible about God providing a need that there was something that went with it like, “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well”  (Matt. 6:33).  I may still not have a job, but if I continue to seek after God, run after His gospel He promises to give me drink, food and clothing. 

Another trail led me to remember that I ONLY exist in the present.  My mind can take me back to my long-term sub job at Oak Ridge, or our apartment in Apple Valley or even a meal at my parents home, but God isn’t reliving that with me.  He exists with me where I exist- the present.  I need to be with God where He is meeting me. 

The final trail I went down was thinking back to a sermon series at RVC given by Robert Morris.  He spoke all about finances but used the story of Jesus feeding the multitudes for his message.  I remember him pointing out that Jesus prayed for the food before it was served.  It was blessed and then supernaturally multiplied to what they needed. 

So after all that I concluded to live in today.  I opened my hands to God and said “here is what I have for this meal ministry and its nothing, there are no funds, no plans, no team, but I pray a blessing over this nothing, I commit to you and ask you to multiply it.”  I opened up my hands again and said “here is what I have to get a job, my background, my experience, who you made me to be, I pray a blessing over it, trust you with it and ask you to multiply it.” 

Now I didn’t trip over a stack of money or have families knocking on my door offering me a job, but I did have peace knowing that I can simply live in today and be present with a God who exists WITH me.  Youth Group went great with the meal, we found the kitchen that opens up huge possibilities and I made great contacts with people who are able and willing to help.  I also took delight in my “job” of illustrating this book and continue to search and reach out to nanny-families.

I am grateful for today.

Thankful for: meeting another Shelly who is a beast with this meal stuff! (Yes that is how she spells her name!)        

As a wife who is saddened to see her husband in so much discomfort and pain- please pray for a supernatural healing with Josh’s mouth- the sores are not subsiding. 

Good night all- go to sleep knowing you only have to live just tomorrow- not a million days at once!  J

OH and my super fresh husband started a blog- his will not be an everyday thing but be sure to check it out because he is a MUCH better writer than myself!  http://eternallyfresh.blogspot.com/